一棵树。。

“下辈子你想当什么？”
“下辈子我想当一棵树。”
这是其中一部韩剧中男女主角的对白。。。

如果你问我下辈子想当什么？
我想我可能会回答我想当一棵树，甚至是一株草吧！！
我喜欢简单，不喜欢复杂化。。。
我不喜欢思考困难的东西。。。
一棵树，既有生命， 不需要思考，又能绿化环境。。。
一棵树，可以活得很简单，只管吸取阳光，负责光合作用，和蓝天白云做朋友。。。
所以，当一棵树应该最适合不过了。。。

之前的一个星期实在过得不太好，一下子情绪全崩解了，逃不出来。。。
一个星期后的我，恢复自我，依然是那个原来的我。。。
虽然偶尔还有小情绪，但小情绪谁人没有呢！？
想找回自己，活的自我，快乐就好。。。
《拥有快乐，与快乐同在最重要》

最近喜欢上了张栋梁的新歌“低调”，反复的听着。。。

现在的我，依然想念外婆。。。希望她安康，快乐！

paeds and DD...

my 2 weeks time in paeds was juz over like tat!! time passed damn fast and 2 weeks are juz like nothing!!

paeds is abit different from other satellite pharmacies... it has different types of medications like neuro, seizure and genetic drugs which normally only available in respective satellite pharmacies in hkl... in paeds, i got the chance to make syrups and this is quite interesting actually...

since i only in paeds for 2 weeks, so i juz jaga DD mainly and opd... and now i almost get sick of DD and it is really nauseous to experience DD overdose @@ Tuesday is the DD indent day from the wards and while handling the DD indent from wards, there were interruptions from opd continuosly... and i dun understand why tues always has the most out-patient DD prescriptions in the 2 weeks but not the other days!! i guessed they wanna test my capability in multi-tasking :p

last time when i was in in-patient department, i always get to finished the DD indent by lunch time on DD day.. and that time got more wards and more DDs compared to paeds! but in paeds, tuesday equals to TERRIBLE day for me!! i couldn't concentrate on the ward DD indent itself and the worst was to make syrups halfway... so on Tuesdays i went for late lunch, i handled the DD for whole day, and i STOOD for more than EIGHT hours!!!

and few days before i left paeds, i was bullied by a PPK!!! bu shuang bu shuang bu shuang!!! others colleagues in paeds treated me nice but she ... ... ... geramnya @#$%^&*
it happened as below:

Event 1:
i brought a basket of DD to pre-pack them... i walked to the pre-packing tablet machine there and when the ppk saw me heading to the machine,
ppk: saya nak guna ni, u tak bagi tahu saya awal, prp sepatutnya bagi tahu awal jadi saya tak guna machine ini!
Ok, fine.. she was using the machine and i didn't noe that i need to arrange with her 1st... so i told her: tak apa lah, petang baru saya guna...
but then, she was disappeared after that and i didn't see her intention to let me use the machine since she pre-packed the tablets half-way only...
and there were alot of DD for me to pre-pack, so i juz packed the DD using the triangular counters...
after that, i still feel Ok with her de untill the next morning when i reached the hospital... ...

Event 2:
i found that there was a keychain with the key of my locker... before that the key dunhav any keychain de and i din bring the key home so i juz put it on my locker... when the ppk saw me,
ppk: saya dah tukar locker dengan u, u guna yang dalam itu lah...
she ady shifted all her stuffs into the locker and she shud asked for my permission b4 she did tat!!!
Ok fine, i am leaving paeds soon so juz use the locker as u like la... and after that i found that the door of her locker got abit prob tat's the reason she wanna exchange her locker wif mine...

Event 3:
still on the same day, i still got DD to pre-pack so i brought my DD to the pre-packing place and started packing... the ppk wasn't there and obviouly she hadn't finished packing her tablets so i juz packed DD manually as the day before... when the ppk came to the place,
ppk: biasanya prp tak akan duduk di sini untuk pack DD, biasanya prp akan duduk di sana (she pointed to another seat) kerana ini tempat saya... u duduk di sini saya tak boleh buat kerja saya lah... u boleh guna seal machine itu (she pointed to another seal machine behind me) kerana saya nak guna yang ini!!
walao... dis time i really bu shuang bu shuang dy!! i din look at her and i juz nodded my head...
Harlo... i sit here bcoz u weren't here to do ur work.. i sit here bcoz i wanna use the seal machine and another seal machine was using by the others!!!
anyhow, i shifted to the place that she pointed to continue my work!! :p

i not really enjoyed my time in paeds actually.. coz mainly dealed with DD and i dunhav chance to learn bout paediatric drugs... and DD really made me dizzy esp the DD tablets... dunno why suddenly got extra so many... and dunno why there was shortage of 10 tabs... tally tak tally really made me pening... and paeds is too far from the other blocks in hkl... so i couldn't join most of them for lunch and my lunch everyday in medan was either fried rice or chicken rice... dun like dun like coz too much rice for me liao!! anyhow, those FRPs and PPFs in paeds are nice but NOT the PPK!! blekkk...
i think i wil enjoy and learn more in paeds if i hav more times there...

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I almost caused an accident yesterday morning... i went out wif my brother yest and when the time wanna crossed the road, i saw my brother crossed the road... without looking to both ways, i juz followed behind him to cross the road... after my 1st step, i saw a motocycle came from my right... to avoid me, the motorcyclist fell from his motorcycle... my heart was beaten so fast tat time!! i was so guilty bout dis and luckily he didn't get injured!! thanks god and i am so sorry, again!!

Brand New~

tomorrow will be a brand new MONTH, with a brand new WEEK, and a brand new STATION!!

actually i am not motivated at all and feeling so dulllll... sienzz...

my stations in June and July will be Paeds-Enforcement-Methadone-ONG.

i guess paeds shud be a interesting station since i can make syrup there :)

hope i am not isolated from the crowd in these stations... :p

and hope i can start my research project as soon as possible!! start to feel the stress of havent started anything on my research topic yet while the others ady finished presenting their research project!!

and the dull feelings shud stop here and i shall make a fresh start tomorrow!!! yeah!!

but then, can i have a brand new life of mine??? I need a breath of fresh air!!

A good day!

surprisingly,
did not take nap after i get home from work today!!
and i hav done my tpn report!!
*Clap cLap* ^o^

hope it's not too busy and too tiring when i go do uro-nephro relief tmr!!
hope tmr is another good day!! ^^
and dis week wil be a relaxing week for me!!
yippie!!

Manchested United VS Barcelona tonight!! which wil win the cup??? :p

Oncalls

Shift 1 Oncall on Last Monday

This is the first ever crazy shift-1 oncall tat i hav done so far, MONDAY night oncall is crazy and terrible!!

1st of all, i hav to go to paeds satellite to supply SODIUM BENZOATE powder!! dis is considered as the unlucky one when need to open the other satellite pharmacies during oncall!!
for those who haven been to HKL, juz to tell tat HKL is act damn BIG.. paeds is at the far of the another end of hkl!! due to the 'CONSIDERATE' doctor who ordered the medicine after office hours, and after my frp had negotiated wif them for so long, i still need to go to open the paeds pharmacy!!
i walked ALONE at night time to paeds pharmacy and the staff nurse was waiting me thr... i opened the pharmacy, and wif no idea where the drug is, the kind SN called 1 of the paeds pharmacist for help when i reli couldn't find the drug..
the pharmacist told me tat act i hav to weigh the drug since it is in powder form!! I even dunno where the switch is to on the weighing balance!! luckily and finally, the pharmacist asked me to take any1 pack of those they act hav ready packed for the other patients but hav to teach the SN bout the amount to take... phew!!

after i went back to the opd, so shocked when i saw opd was FULL of patients, which i only normally seen in daytime opd!! reli crazy since only 4 of us working but every single seat in opd was occupied by the patients and patients still keep coming in NON-STOP!! luckily not many tdm cases tat night so i could help out in dispensing early...
the prescriptions there cant be described as THICK only, but are MUCH THINKER than usual!! act i counldn't controlled myself and laughed out when i saw 1 whole stack of prescriptions there but the pembantu ady tak larat to do anymore.. hahaha.. 1st tme to see they surrender with the overflow prescriptions... hahaha...

and next month i am gonna oncall on MONDAY again!! Deng!! pray hard pray hard!!

Weekend Methadone Oncall

Abit stressed up on my 1st day of methadone oncall since it is my 1st methadone oncall and still not familar wif the procedures thr.. i do dispensing on the 1st day and i was abit slow at the beginning... i need to record 4 places to dispense the methadone and i din noe tat the last sheet of papers tat i need to record is arranged according to the file number of the patient.. so i found the pt's name 1 by 1 in the sheets and complained in my heart tat why they nvr arrange pt's names in alphabetical order and wasting my time here!! :P while spending longer time in finding their names, the pts waiting outside started to be impatient and making some noise... scared me tat time and i tried to dispense faster.. finally the ppk reached dy and helped me to record the final sheets, and the flow back to the normal pace... phew!!

and there was a pt who din come for her methadone in last few days so i asked her the reason..
"kenapa tak datang sebelum ini?"
"lock up lo!"
she juz asnwered me in a way tat kena lock up is very normal to her but i was shocked to hear tat!!! not dared to say anything and i juz dispensed methadone to her... sweat...
and there was a pt who came late but v ady closed our counter and was doing some calculations in the room.. the pt kept knocking on the door wif his strength for quite some time!! scary!!! v din open the door in the end and the pt left finally... phew!!

overall, i think methadone oncall is still Ok to me... since it was fun when i did methadone preparation on the next day of my oncall... it is not as heavy as the other oncalls and i can reach home by 1pm :p juz tat the patients thr are act drug addicts and some of them are quite rude, wat they wan r juz METHADONE!!

LAZY BUG, SLEEPING BUG PLEASE GO AWAY!!

dunno wat hav happened, LAZY and SLEEPING BUGS keep attacking me dis week!!! currently at store department which is sien de station; act as a receptionist and i keep answering the calls (tak suka), or do some boring data checking/entry stuffs (tak suka), or do nth there (pun tak suka)... in kinda senang station i am kinda tired and sleepy after work :p i can sleep for 2-4 hrs after work and then sleep at 12 midnight AGAIN!! :p and now i am QUEEN of sleeping dy (act juz like a pig) :p haha...

i guess i needed so much sleep in this week is bcoz of :-

Post-Oncall Syndrome??? was having shift-1 oncall last monday, and methadone oncall last sat and sun so hav to wake up early for more than 10 days consecutively, so-called hangover effects?? :p

OVER-relaxing state?? i had done 6 presentations so far and there is only research project presentation to go!! yeah :p haha.. juz like a stretched rubber band which is back to its relaxing state; i am so reluctant to do anything after working time dy... so until now still haven started my tpn report and research project :p selamber again, reli tak tahan myself :p

anyway, shudn't be so unproductive again!! at least muz watch some dramas after work ma, how can spend my time wif 'zhou gong' only :p
no la... shudn't waste my time in sleeping again, shud start doing my work, and show some enthusiasm and professionalism in my job ma!! haha...

OFF on next mon, yippie!! Happy Weekends ^^

RaiN~

Finally, it RAINS today after DAYS/WEEKS/MONTHS of the VERY WARM temperatures!!! but the rain did not arrive at the right time since it is raining while i am not feeling well, it is cold mann... =.=

Anyway, it has turned down the temperature and bcoz of the rain i able to curl up myself under the blanket which i hav never done for the past few weeks :p

i love RAINY day, woohoo... ^^